I forgot to follow-up on my AA home meeting. I was at work and my sponsor called to tell me she wasn’t feeling good and that she would be missing our meeting. Like any good alcoholic I instantly thought “great now I don’t have to go, I can stay at work and make extra money.” Luckily I ran my brilliant idea past my husband and he just looked at me and told me to get to the meeting.
For those of you who have never been to an AA meeting I’m sure it’s very intimidating at times but once you start going it is literally the best thing you will ever do for yourself. I walked in nd two girls instantly called my name. I felt welcomed and at home. I sat down and listened to all the other women share how they were feeling and how things were going for them, both good and bad. I wasn’t able to share because the meeting was over before they got to me. But I felt lighter when I walked out that door. I don’t know what it is about talking to people who share a common problem but it helps. It just helps. If I didn’t have AA I don’t know what I would do.
I tried two other times in my life to quit drinking on my own and I was partly successful. I was able to stop for a year each time, but each time I wasn’t able to make it stick. My mind and disease would start telling me I wasn’t an alcoholic, that i had grown up, that I could handle a drink, just one. Well I can’t handle just one and I am an alcoholic. My disease is cunning and it doesn’t matter if it’s been 2 months, 2 years or 22 years, I can’t ever drink again if I want to keep my life, and I do. Plus AA has given me a support group of wonderful people who want to help me. Sometimes the people closest to you can’t do it.
Anyways I felt a 100 times better after I left my meeting. Thank you husband for gently reminding me I need to get my butt there.
Leigh.
